Someone make up my mind for me...

(I still haven't have pictures for the last service so..this post first)

My mind is really jumbled up now...Everything really have their own pro's and con's..
I really dunno wat to do already..with the industrial training coming and all...
and being cheerful everyday is not something easy to do...
I couldn't make any more decisions...or keep on to a decision i make any longer..
Even when typing this post..i had to backspace so many times...when i normally don't need to..
For those that has been following with my blog posts..You might guess whats wrong with me..
And, yes its bout him...and, college most of all..and I don't know why that some people are more "kan cheong" then me about things that concern only me..sigh...(and when i say things that concern only me...means my own private things)
Anyway...i should leave this gloomy stage soon..or spare myself falling into depression..
Shoo Shoo..emo-ness
BB

I wonder...?

I sometimes wonder..wouldn't it be great if I was more brave..more confident...etc
but, when its the time for me to prove it...i retreat immediately..somehow or other..with excuses i make up myself...which also includes unreasonable reasons...
Won't it be better if i could just face my feelings act like it? I sometimes feel like a hypocrite..
also a type of person that i dun like..but still i couldn't change the fact that i sometimes weren't
I am feeling super emo when i wrote this anyway..
With a deep emotion beneath trying to get out..after such a long time..
I still am in doubt whether or not to let it out..but yet again i might fail badly,
Should i try i ask myself...with encouraging and also discouraging words all around..
I just couldn't make up my mind just yet...but times running out..(help)...yet i have to solve it myself.
I know this sounds lame, but i figured this is the only i could express my feelings..without really expressing it...
Day by day...my strings are being pulled, it gets tighter & tighter each second...
Good Night...

Late-ness in update

So sorry for the late update....anyway this post is for friday's barbeque..^^
Anyway...I have no pictures yet too..its all with Andy...so if u wan to see them..u can go to his blog..
The day started with going to college at 8 am..Had maths class, then kitchen practical...had to do a presentation..etc.etc..anyway after class we went to May'2 house and he had to pack his things..his house (first time)..was so empty..lol
After that off we go to Vincent's house (which include..Me,Maynard,Alvin,Samantha,Leon,Jimmy & of course Vincent)..which was in Seputih...we got to his house..and started the mise-en place...chop chop chop...slice slice slice....
Then we had nothing to do so all sat down at the kitchen table and drank german wine courtesy from Alvin..=p
Later we set the barbeque thingy (fireplace)..wateva it is called...And they had to steal some bricks lol..(shhh) because there weren't enough..
BBQ started..only the few of us plus Jon,& Aniq..started eating and playing around at the BBQ
The others came later around 8-9 i think ..and the "party" continued..till around 12 something or 1...but i left early with Aniq and Jon...(damn curfew & no transport)
Anyway..we did alot of things...May'2 did potato salad..which is quite nice actually..i am not too sure if it was finished though..there was alot..
And there was also pasta, & chocolate cakes...^^
For More Information..pls refer to ANDY'S Blog..=P
(whose blog link can be found at the right hand column)
Cheerio..